Sharie's Side Story

A CONFESSION

If I were the winner, I would say those "three most valuable words" to you...

If I were the winner, I would compensate with all of the possibilities it would have...

If I were the winner, this feeling towards you would be confessed...

Aerish was so.... annoying this morning, with her bubbling-mumbling words about this and that to me. Was she thinking that she was my Mom? Hell, no! She's just another worried people, who kept asking me, whether I was ready or not to go to the competition which will be held in outer space in the North City.

"Have you got your clothes, Shar?"
"My Mom had packed those things last night, well, I trust her more than myself."

"Then, have you prepared the competition things, like the script for your speech, or something like that?"
"Yes, I have Aerish. Will you just stop asking me those question and worrying me that much? I'm a grown-up girl, I know what should I do!"

"Well, if you're a grown-up girl, please correcting me, I was kind of meeting this type of girl who didn't know how even to open her own new handphone yesterday, and yet you ask me to stop worrying about that kind of girl?"
"Well.... Uh... I'm sorry, Aerish. I didn't mean that. But, I don't want you to be worried. It's not like I will move to another school. It's just I'm going to North City to join the competition for about one week, that's all. Okay? Stop worrying, I'll try my best just to depend on myself. Okay?"
"Fine! But, promise me if there's something wrong just ask other people to help you, Shar!"
"Sir, yes Sir!"

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I was standing now at the hall. It was the last day of the competition, which meant that the result would be announced soon. Yes, and now even I, along with another contestants, was sitting in the hall to hear the announcement.

I was kind of... well, yeah, hoping that I would be the winner of the competition. To make them proud: my parents, my family, my teachers, even my friends. I had suffered lately: coming to school from 7 to 7 (at night) in order to practice. That kind of suffer had to be replaced by smile: I had to win! Besides that, I had promised one thing to myself before....

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(flashback)

"Hey, Shar! You told me that you like a certain guy? Who's that? Tell me, please!"

"Not now, Aerish. Not now. I must reconciliate to my feeling first, to control myself."

"Not fair! You told me you would. When? For a girl like me, patience might die if the curiosity comes up. I beg to you, who's that guy?"

"Just wait a little bit longer, Aerish. I promise I will tell you, but not now."
"Ughhhh... You're not my style, Shar! Promise me, when then?"
"Hem... What about,... after I get the winner of the competition I'm joining in? I promise you, if I get the winner state, I will tell you personally. How does it sound? Better?"
"You should be, or else, I will tell the others that you're falling in love with a kind of freak coming from Electrical Engineering Departement, you know Kaito? The Freak with very thick glasses? I will start the rumour about you and him then."

"I promise, Aerish, I promise. Happy, now?"

"Hehehe, that's my Sharie I know."

"But, remember, only if I win. If I am not, I keep silent."

"It's all up to you, but you owe me to tell about him later. Let's go meet up with others. Ryuko has texted me that if we're not coming, the chicken nuggets might be gone to Makio's stomach then. We don't want it happening, right Shar? Come on!"

"But, wait! How come Ryuko has texted you? She didn't replied my SMS just now!"

"You know her. She has that kiind of grudge towards you. In case you're her friend-always-be-scolded Shar. Be patient to her."

"Oohhh, Meanie! Geez, I hate her yet I love her. What am I? A bipolar? Damn, I am now a Freak like you guys. My innocence philosophy~!"

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Later that night, after the announcement, I texted my Mom, Dad, and Aerish. I told my parents the truth, they were still proud of me and texted me to be safe on the way home. Meanwhile, I just texted those words to Aerish, another shorter one:

To : Aerish

My confession, postponed, later tell you in the future!

After waiting for ten minutes, well, I supposed that Aerish was on the phone with Makio right now, arguing about Homo Sapiens which was taught by our History teacher. Then, suddenly my phone was beeb-ing, signaled that a message from Aerish reached my phone.

To : Sharie

Fighting! You need more rest than worry about this kind of thing. But, remember, tell me someday. Talk to you later at school. Be careful!

I was about to text some words to her, but I stopped. I'd better follow the instruction to sleep, I was exhausted and sleepy right now. Nighty night!~

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(Sharie's phone was put on the table. There written some words since Sharie was about to send but she forgot to do that and was sleeping instead. On the monitor, it was written:

To : Aerish

Even I want to tell you who he is. But, this is my promise: "If I were the winner, this feeling towards you would be confessed..." which I must remember first. But, I know I can't hide it, I really want to tell you about him. But, I can't. I must keep this alone until that "Someday". That his name is...

Dharigra...

My first love...

My friend in disguised (in my heart, I see him as my lover)...

My confession towards him was... postponed...

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有点泛黄的我们的合照

心痛的是我 无法回到那时候

Our photos together are yellowing a bit

The one whose heart is hurting is me, unable to return to that time